Keys, Guitar, Vocals
Birthday: November 7
Hometown: Diamond Bar, CA
Favorite Bible Passage: Matthew 11:28-30
Influential Music: Bethel, Hillsong, Elevation, John Williams
Favorite Movie: The Bourne Trilogy, Spirited Away, Good Will Hunting
Favorite Book: The Harry Potter series
Hobbies: Board games, listening to film music, watching Netflix, swimming, and napping.
Here’s an interesting fact about Phoebe: she enjoys hearing the sound of a vacuum or a blow dryer in the morning while she sleeps. What she does not enjoy, however, is holding a cup with condensation on the outside.
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Our team spent about a week in Toronto last week. We hung out with some CTI alums (s/o to Sam and Elisa!), ate a lot of good Asian food, and of course, played at schools and churches in the Toronto area. But while we were there, we held 3 workshops for worship teams at the schools and churches we played at. The workshops consisted of us talking about what roles each section in a band should have and how all the instruments can come together cohesively, but we also spent a portion of our time talking about what worship is.
When someone says the word “worship,” or asks you what “worship” is, what thoughts come across your mind? Maybe you might associate worship with music? Or with adoration? Praise? Loving others? Devotionals? Prayer? The list can go on and on. I’ve been thinking about what worship means to me. For a while, I associated worship with music, like playing for worship on a Sunday morning or listening to worship music in the car. And that’s not necessarily wrong, but I’ve come to realize that worship is much greater than that.
By definition, “worship” means to ascribe worth to something. There is an act of surrender when you worship because you recognize the value and worth in something. You wouldn’t want to worship a bug, for example, because you probably wouldn’t find much value or worth in it. Worship in this case, is valuing or treasuring God above all things because you recognize that He is greater.
When you begin to see worship as more than just music, you start to see how worship can and should permeate every part of your life. You worship God by obeying His commands, by serving one another, by spending time in prayer, etc. Worship is an action. It requires a response. Worship can be summarized as
Worship is a lifestyle. Everything you do can either be worshiping God or…not. Worship is no longer something you’re only doing on Sunday mornings, but something you’re doing every moment of your life.
So I want to challenge you. What does worship mean to you?
“Now my debt is paid. It is paid in full by the precious blood that Jesus spilled.
Now the curse of sin has no hold on me. Whom the Son sets free,
Oh is free indeed.”
-from “Man of Sorrows” by Hillsong Worship
We’ve been on the road for a week and a half now. We’ve made our way to PA, and we’ll be playing at Michael’s home church for the next couple days! As we’ve started this tour, I’ve been constantly reminded of the lyrics above from one of our songs on our repertoire. The lyrics are so powerful and hold so much truth. Our sins have been paid, and we have been set free because of Christ’s death on the cross. As believers, we are free from our sins and it even says in Romans 8:1 that “there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”
But why is it so hard to remember this truth? Why is it so easy to simply know that you’re set free and to instantly forget?
If you’ve ever seen our concerts, you might have seen us do one of our dramas to a song called, “Dare You to Move.” The drama tells the story of the gospel and starts from the beginning when God created the world and man and ends with Christ dying on the cross and restoring our relationship with him. I play Eve in the drama (from Adam and Eve in the book of Genesis) and there’s this moment when I (or Eve), eats the fruit from the tree that God specifically said she couldn’t eat from. She instantly realizes her mistake and starts to run.
Every time I do that drama, I’m reminded of how much I’m like Eve. Whenever I know I’ve sinned, my first instinct is to run or try to resolve the issues on my own. There are times when I know I’m wrong, but instead of stopping, I will continue to run because pride won’t let me stop. It’s in these moments when I forget that my debts have been paid. That I’ve been set free from the bondage of sin. I forget what Christ did for me 2,000 years ago. I’m caught in my own guilt and shame, but that’s exactly what we are set free from! I’ve been learning to preach the gospel to myself daily because I know that I desperately need the gospel. It is so important to remind yourself of the gospel daily and to preach the gospel to others, so that you can have a fuller understanding of who God is.
Throughout this year, I’ve made a list of things that I’ve learned so far. I’ll share a few of them with you:
I may not be seeing or understanding how God is working in certain situations, but I should trust in his promises and not doubt. So many times I find myself frustrated when I don’t understand why God would allow for certain situations, but I’m always reminded that God’s ways are higher than mine.
Persevere in every situation. It says in James 1:2-3 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.”
“I will never regret saying no to myself and yes to God.” Paul, from our office told us this back when we were in training. It’s always been a good reminder to submit to God in every situation.
“I’m willing to make a fool of myself if that means the gospel will be shared.” David Chu, our partner at Hong Kong YFC reminded me that what we do is not about me. It’s about sharing the gospel and bringing people to Christ. So, if I need to look like a fool on stage at times to draw attention to share the gospel, then I will do that.
God uses us in spite of our shortcomings and our weaknesses.
God doesn’t need me to carry out his work. His work will be done in spite of my efforts. But, he wants us to be a part of his plan, so it’s up to us to decide whether or not we want to be a part of it.
Embrace challenges because it’s a great opportunity for God to use you. Challenges force you to rely on God, and you see God’s faithfulness in the end. It’s also a great way to clearly see how God is working through the challenges.
Our weaknesses are made perfect in Christ. It says in 2 Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest in me.”
These are just a few of the things I’ve learned along the way. I’ve been seeing how God is working in my life and challenging me to grow in my own faith. I challenge you to make your own list to see how God has been working in your own life!
If there’s one thing I’ve been learning on tour, it’s that God is faithful. It might sound cliche, but I’m truly starting to see just how faithful God really is.
I grew up in church and in a Christian home. I always knew that God is faithful, but never really understood it. I saw God’s faithfulness in the Bible, but never really thought about how that applied to me. It was always easy for me to understand God on a head-knowledge level, but difficult for me to actually apply it to my life.
Well, road life has taught me how faithful God is in spite of my own weaknesses and shortcomings. There were times right before a concert when I was met with exhaustion and fatigue, but God was faithful in providing strength that I knew only came from him. I see God’s faithfulness when we get 10 students at one venue willing to take a step in faith and audition to be a part of this program. I see God’s faithfulness during times where our van and trailer breaks down, and God provides people to not only help us fix our trailer problems, but they offer to do it for free. I see God’s faithfulness when elementary students tell us after our performance that they understood our drama about the gospel. I see God’s faithfulness when my power cable for my keyboard breaks 10 minutes before a concert starts, and the venue just so happens to have a compatible power cable I could use. I see God’s faithfulness within our team when we conflicts arise, but we’re able to resolve issues in a Christ-like way.
I can go on and on about how God has been faithful to us. But, I think it’s important to remember that in the moments when doubt and fear start to creep in, be reminded that God is a big God. I’ve learned that God will continue to use us to do his work, even if we feel incapable or worse, unwilling to do so. He is constantly on the move, and it’s up to us to decide whether we want to be a part of it or not.
We were just in Seattle and now we’re in Richmond, Canada. We’re almost 3 weeks into our 10 week tour, and I decided to interview Hannah to see how she’s been feeling about touring so far!
Q: What has been your favorite part of this tour so far?
A: Being able to travel a lot of the country and sharing the gospel. I’m very humbled to have this experience.
Q: What has been your favorite city/state we’ve been to this tour?
A: Seattle! It was a fun city to explore. There’s so much more to see, do, and eat than the Midwest. Mountains > Plains any day 🙂
Q: What’s a memorable thing that happened to you at a venue?
A: In Sunnyside, WA, I met a ton of people who had a lot of connections to Prinsburg and my hometown. I almost felt like I was back in the Midwest.
Q: What’s your favorite song in our rep and why?
A: We Walk? It’s so hard to choose! But I love We Walk because it’s hype, first off haha. The song talks about how Jesus will take away every earthly pain and heartache we are going through, and how that battle has already been won. Because of what Christ has done, we can now walk in power and love. And I just think that’s a super awesome thing that we get to walk int he Spirit and have Christ on our side.
Q: What place are you most excited to go to this tour?
A: LA to meet Phoebe’s family. And I’ve never been to Cali before. (Wow. I blushed. Hannah is great.)
Q: What’s the hardest part about touring?
A: Team life, not getting enough sleep, and sitting in a van where I can’t fully extend my legs because of the length of them.
Q: How would you describe this team in 3 words?
A: Perseverant, Passionate about the gospel, Weird (Hannah, that’s more than 3 words, but it’s fine. It’s fine.)
Q: Lastly, how have you grown musically from this experience?
A: I was trained classically, so coming into CTI and was suddenly playing guitar lead lines on a keyboard was a real learning curve. It also involved playing a LOT of chords, and inversions were never my strong suit, but they come so so much easier now. I think I’ve learned a lot more about my instrument and how, when/where it fits and how to figure out what a song really needs from a keyboard.
We’ll be heading back to the States in a couple days, and continuing our ministry on the west coast. Hope to see you on the road!