rest.

Resting is something that I’ve never been good at. I’ve always had this compulsive need to stay busy. I rarely say “no” to people. I push myself to my limits often. I have a hard time sitting down to simply relax or breathe. Sometimes I have a hard time watching movies because there’s this voice in my head telling me that I’m being lazy when there’s a million other things that I could be doing.

This often results in a burn out. It results in me not getting enough sleep, over-committing myself, and never actually leaving time for myself or for time with God. Burning out isn’t fun. When I burn out I can’t think straight, my emotions are all over the place, and I can’t wholeheartedly face the tasks in front of me.

Unfortunately this can happen in my life in ministry. I forget priorities and forget to do my devotions and spend time with the Lord. I become spiritually weary and tired. It seems as though I have this fog weighing down my spirit and body and that is causing me to lose sight of my Saviour. It’s in these moments when I need to rest. In these times that I need to turn to the Lord and be filled by Him. For if I’m not going to Him to be filled, how will I have anything to pour into others?

In the book of Matthew there’s a well known verse that says,

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 28-30

Mmm. So good. Jesus is giving us a promise of rest. Not just a promise for physical rest from labor, but a a promise of rest for our souls. A rest that we can only find in Jesus when we are following him. A rest in the business and chaos. In the hard times, in the times where we are so overwhelmed, we are promised REST. And after all, God created a day specifically for rest and he himself rested on that day. I was made to rest. I was made to rest in Him.

I find hope in this. That I don’t need to push myself to my limits, that I know my God sees me in my weariness and that he knows that I need to rest. He promised rest. He made a day for rest. He rests. I am learning how to rest.