Four months ago in May, my buddy auditioned to be a drummer and was accepted onto a CTI summer team. Shortly after that I found myself on the same team heading to Honduras for a month. When I decided to join CTI, I admittedly had no clue what I was signing up for. I don’t think I even realized what they meant by “music ministry” until my first day of training. My reasoning for joining CTI was largely in support of my friend more than what the team was for in the first place. But over the month in Honduras, the more and more I shared the Gospel, the more I loved sharing it and the more true it felt to me.
As I was traveling with my summer team, the Great Commission’s role in my life became more clear to me and I began to consider whether ministry was for me. The conversation that really got me thinking about full-time was one I had in Honduras with my team leader. I was struggling with calling, God’s plan for my life, and my own desires and passions. She told me about her own journey and the ways God lead her in ways she could have never expected.
Something she told me stuck out to me. She said the desires and passions we have are given to us by God. Sometimes, what it means to follow God’s plan for us is to pursue the things we are passionate about or that which we desire to do.
After many other encouraging conversations with peers, family, and mentors, I decided to apply for the full-time team as a sound tech right after my summer tour. I was really given confirmation about my decision by the fact that I was able to make the team only a few weeks before training started. I was a little more worried about the fact that I was on the team as one of the vocalists.
I had sent in an audition video as a vocalist** with the intention of filling in the role if needed, but really hoping I wasn’t needed. In the end, I started training as a vocalist and even before I arrived I had begun to have doubts.
Before we left for our first tour, our team went over 1 Corinthians 12, which is the part about spiritual gifts. One of the verses that resonated strongly with the whole team was 1 Cor. 12:15-16 which reads:
“Now if the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body.” – 1 Cor. 12:15-16
I had never really been a lead singer for a band before and the fact that I was going to lead a band of incredibly talented musicians seemed beyond my capabilities.
During one of my conversations with my teammates, one of them told me that God had put all of us exactly where we are and that there was absolutely no one who could do the job that we had been given better than we could because God put us where we are intentionally. Even if there might be people who are more talented than we are, no one is anywhere they shouldn’t be because God has us exactly where we need to be and he has equipped us to follow that path.
I am so blessed to have grown so much in my understanding in such an incredibly short amount of time. From Day 1 on my summer team to Day 1 of our first tour, I have seen God work in amazing ways and speak to me in truly awesome ways. Already in this short time I have learned to trust God to lead me down the right path that will reveal to me more of his glory and his power and love.
Please continue to pray for our team as we learn to trust God more and more and see the wonderful ways God can work in and through us. We all greatly appreciate your prayers and know that your support is at work among us as we share the Gospel to those who desperately need it like we all do. We will continue to lift up His name in praise.
Lift him up let the whole world see, we will never stop singing!
Lift him up let the whole world hear, we will never stop shouting!
Lift him up, every voice in praise, everyone lift him up! Lift him up!
“Strong in Us” – Brian Johnson & Bethel Music
**I wrote back-up female vocalist on my audition video, which I soon realized was a mistake. The office took that a little more seriously than I had intended.